Don't know how I'm feeling

July wasn't a great month for blogging. I only logged in 7 entries - the lowest ever. With work, my travel, and the fatigue, I haven't really been feeling up to much of anything. I actually think I'm a little depressed.

It's not that I'm not excited about the baby. I am. I am also just worried and have so much stuff on my mind. I don't know how it all will work out. I can't put my finger on it. I'm just not myself lately. Part of it just left over fatigue and just general malaise from the first trimester. But I don't know. I can tell I'm starting to feel better physically, but I don't think my emotional state is catching up. I am going to keep my eye on how I feel because if I need to go into counseling, I should probably do so quickly.

On a more positive note, I may have possibly felt little Baby Lua move yesterday. I can't say for sure - it's way early to experience quickening. However, I was laying in bed with my hand on my stomach and just felt the oddest sensation in my lower abdomen. It wasn't like popcorn popping or butterflies. Just a flutter I guess. But I can't be sure. I haven't been able to replicate it. But I'm going to keep trying. I really would love to feel the baby move for sure, because that would really make me less stressed and more connected to the baby.

I'm thankful for: Finally getting my hair done. It looked crazy over the past 12+ weeks!